Enough Already

It only took about 20 hours for God to stick it to me in 2013.  I mean honestly can't I have at least a day of delusion and self deception?  Can't I have at least a day to think I got it all together?  Am I the only one who finds themselves saying to God, "Enough already!"  I'm one flawed cat and I keep discovering how flawed I really am, but every now and then I could use a What about Bob "vacation from my problems."  You ever relish those guilt free years?  Or what about those past victories like "I didn't drink today" or "I wasn't such an a#%hole today."  Now I'm crushed by so little: A harsh word, a judgmental thought, an unsympathetic heart.  Shakespeare placed on the lips of Julius Caesar the words "Cowards die many times before their deaths; The valiant never taste of death but once."  As grand and heroic as Shakespeare's words sound, they fall short of the life devoted to following Jesus.  To follow Jesus turns Shakespeare's quote on its head:  "Cowards never die before their death; the valiant many times before."  Sometimes I just wanna be a coward.